I’m scared.

Of my upcoming colonoscopy. Not of the procedure, although I know prep isn't going to be pleasant, but of the possibility that I might have cancer.  A second cancer that is.  I've noticed a change in my bowel habits and tried to chock that up to my adjusting to a new hormone normal but there…

Waiting…

...I hate waiting. Today is my birthday and I feel so tired.  Yesterday just drained all the energy out of me and now I'm sitting on the couch trying to read and I feel like I'm going to fall asleep.  I had hoped that I would know some of the test results for Sjogren's syndrome…

Limbo is almost over

Tomorrow at this time I will be meeting with my doctor out in Iowa City.  I'm still scared but I'm also ready to become pro-active.  I'm tired of waiting, basically.  I don't know when my surgery will be yet but I hope it is soon.  I don't know what type of surgery I will have…