Well, I was right. Another period started today. Not sure how bad it will be yet but I’m prepared. Just think I could have avoided this if I had my surgery last Thursday as planned… I sure am looking forward to the day my uterus and I part ways for this very reason. I have been over this whole monthly cycle for some time now and I’m ready for it to be done.
I’ve gotten three days of walking in and I’ve discovered that I still hate exercise. Yep, still sucks the big one. I’ll get over it. I used to exercise regularly when I was actively losing weight. I’ve lost over 200 pounds in my life, without surgery. I used to eat better too. So I know what to do it is simply a matter of getting back in the habit again. I used to tell myself one hour of exercise a day is only 2% of your day. Not so bad when you realize you still spend more hours not exercising than working out. This time around I am listening to an audio book instead of peppy music. I’m still unsure about pushing it too much, getting dizzy or light-headed. So I am keeping a slightly slower pace of 3 miles per hour and just making sure I move. I won’t be losing tons of weight but I’m alright with that. It is about conditioning my heart not fitting into a smaller size.
I received flowers yesterday. From someone that didn’t realize my surgery had been rescheduled. It was very sweet and I called to thank her and to explain why she will still see me around town the next two weeks… The plus side is now I get to enjoy the flowers while feeling relatively well and I can even take them to the library, where I work, for everyone to enjoy.
Went shopping yesterday and bought myself something. Yarn! I used to knit regularly and decided it might be a good activity for when I’m recovering. Something I can do with my hands when I’m not in the mood to read, or too foggy to read. I did start a scarf but wasn’t really into the colors and wanted a bigger project that would take longer. So I started a blanket. I have knit several blankets in my life but never one for myself. That changes now. I picked out a lovely orchid shade and a teal green as well as some variegated thread and started yesterday with a simple stitch pattern that doesn’t involve a lot of paying attention.
So that’s where I am today. Husband works and I am going to hang out at home and try to relax. I feel like my life has become nothing but waiting. Waiting for surgery, waiting for results, waiting to recover. I need to learn to enjoy the down time and simple pleasures but man I much rather be waiting for something like an exotic vacation….
Thank for listening.